Friday 29 November 2013

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 Kate Miller-Heidke everybody.

Anyways, can't wait for the ARIA's because vaaaaaance joooyyyyyyy <3 <3 <3 is performing and so is flume.

I am living my life completely ignoring my problems and I guess there's nothing I can really do now but they are eating me alive and I want to bury myself.

I want a beautiful boy!!! I want someone superficially beautiful. I mean, yes, the insides are important - looks are nothing in a relationship when they're void of personality but I want a beautiful boy!!!! I came across this picture on tumblr:

Look at dat mess of a doily, wtf mister.

Wouldn't it be nice to be with that? I would take pictures all the time. And I'd have a whole collection. I would take them right before he'd be able to smile or pose, it'd be sorta candid. He'd just look up at my camera lens and before he can react, I would have already taken the picture and I could make an album.

Aw.

Anways, dear diary,

These are the blandest mangoes I have ever tasted. They ain't sweet and they ain't sour. They're just bland.

Yours sincerely,

Isaiah Dill-Pickle [xD PaNcAkEs]

LOL I'm trying so hard to not sound like a TB but I either end up sounding like one or being realllyyyyy pretentious hahahahaha wow

Dear Cynthia,

What a beautiful Zedd cover.

With admiration,

Will Pickle-Ezekiel

[***EDIT*** I would like to clarify that the following paragraph was not aimed at Cynthia. It's just that the subject matter reminded me of this one time I tried so hard to look for a guy covering Summertime Sadness without changing the lyrics.]

I know it's stupid but I just hate it when people cover songs and they change lyrics as to show that they're a man singing to a girl or a girl singing to a man, like it's some sort of discreet way to sing "no homo". I mean, yeah, I know that they're probably doing that because they're relating it to someone they knew and they're changing the song a bit to make it more their own because after all, it is THEIR cover. But please understand that I'm not saying that these people aren't allowed to do this, I just can't stand it LOL Like, sound gay, you aren't gonna lose your sexuality and start sucking dick, NOBODY CARES IF YOU'VE DONE YOUR HAIR UP REAL BIG BEAUTY QUEEN STYLE. But LOL, I've got no argument if you are making the song about your life... BUT UGH.

Although, I have absolutely no problem when people do it to sing about someone who died. Idk why, but I always imagine that Birdy is mourning someone when she sings "when you let him go" whilst covering Let Her Go by Passenger [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTuLDimhKaY] LOL she's probably not, and I'm probably being sexist and gayist (???) when I don't mind this whole lyric-changing thingo when a girl like Birdy does it hahahahaha......

Anyways, so excited for stereosonic!! Gonna kiss an ad-lay oday-tay! jaykay.

Don't you ever say "I just walked away",
I will always want you.

I like how Miley Cyrus didn't go for I will always love you. The word 'want' seems to add something so much more and it seems like it's more of a miley lyric,in my opinion.

Okay, I'll end this post here :) With love and ecstasy, [so cool, I know!]

Pretentious, annoying TB.

Tchüss!

Sunday 24 November 2013

Tennant's "I don't wanna go"

Was tacky and I hated it. It's just one of those lines that you either refernce with full effect or not at all. I feel like they kinda took the importance and impact of that moment from before and threw it on the ground. They threw it on the ground and expected the fans to crawl to it and go cray. Okay, LOL, not the best analogy, but you guys get what I mean.

Anyways, despite that, I orgasmed twenty times during that special ep. LOL I'm joking. It was vvvvvvvv good though. I really enjoyed it. Like for real, I keep going back to the "No, all thirteen!" part and I get chills every time. Goddamn goddamn goddamn.

Anyways.





I'll blog later hahaha Auf wiedersehen!

Thursday 21 November 2013

Dear God,

Make me a bird,
So I can fly far,
Far, far away from here.

Dear God,
Make me a bird,
So I can fly far,
Far, far away from here.

Mama always said that God is mysterious.
He didn't turn Jenny into a bird that day.
Instead...
He had the police say Jenny didn't have to stay in that house no more.

One of the most beautiful films I've ever seen. Damn near cried during Jenny's prayers.

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning thru my darkest night.
You're the obi wan that I want.
Think I'm addicted to your light.

I'm starting to like work. I'm a lot more competent now even tho I completely forgot about this one till that I was signed onto and just left there. I would've left it there if it weren't for my lovely colleague. I don't know how to spell your name, but danke for staying back to help count and also alerting me.

I'm going to stereo! Yay!

Work is killing all my plans because I'm always closing and I don't get to party :( But oh wells, money and also I should be grateful I live so close. But party :( Oh wells. I plan to pick up a few skills this holiday and also to get some videos out. Like, for real. In fact,  A VIDEO WILL BE PUT UP BY AT LEAST HALFWAY THROUGH DECEMBER LOL Anyways, I'm having another movie night. I'm gonna rewatch Forrest Gump <3 Bye guys.

Monday 18 November 2013

Something smells like dog food.

And I'm afraid that it just might be my feet. I'm also afraid - too afraid - to check.So lately I've been dreaming about the future. Not the one where I'm a dazzling star, so happy and so bright, but rather the one where my life is... together. I dream about having a cute boyfriend where we do cute boyfriend things and he's got a cute moustache and really intense blue eyes where I can't stare into them for too long in fear of losing my mind but I do it anyways because live fast, die young, bad girls do it well. And I dream about doing well for myself in uni. I dream of being motivated, and getting really good marks and never losing faith in my abilities. I dream of keeping VSA going well - making events that surprise people. I want to be that young president who bit off more than he could chew and swallowed it whole. I failed to do that recently... But I can learn from my mistakes. And in my dream, I worked at Coles still, and I wasn't so nervous all the time, my manager liked me and I was efficient. In my dream I had the boy, the grades, the ability and the money. It was all good. And knowing myself, I knew I could be in the attitude that good things only last for so long but I was confident enough to believe that it could keep on going. I didn't let that attitude stop me. I could be happy forever. Sure, I would lose the boy with the curly hair and it'd be heartbreaking - but I would love him still and let him go at the same time and realise it was a fleeting moment of pure happiness and love and that I could have another - right up until the point where I found something that could last for at least forever.

But - and there's always a but - I do know myself so very and terribly well, and I know that I'll never obtain that attitude in the first place. Isn't that depressing? I dream about being on top and not letting myself bring it all down and I'm already doing it now.


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Wednesday 13 November 2013

Let's make a list!

1. CUTE BUTTON-UP SHIRTS!!!!! Ich habe mittelgroß [I am a size medium]
2. Light-pink vans. Meine Schuh Größe ist neun und eine Halfte [My shoe size is nine and a half]
3. Paramore by Paramore, the self-titled album
4. ARTPOP album
5. Adventure time stuffff
6. A pretty dress
7. More chinos -> Größe 30!
8. A nice blazer!!!
9. Cologne
10. A nice belt.
11. Born to die album. Paradise edition or not, either either.
12. Vinyls!! Like, vinyl versions of modern ablums like Adele's 21, Born to Die, gaga? Paramore!! Florence and the Machineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
13. A nice camcorder :L Maybe something I can prop on my shoulder hahaha
14. Tea :) Like from T2. Preferrably black tea, I guess. Don't get chai though. Like, yes please, I would like choc chai or a variety of chai but not normal chai because I already have that chai :) Okay.
15. Ties. Not plain ties, but cute ties. Like a floral one or one with bicycles on it or OOH ! A NICE TIE PIN!!
16. A nice tie pin/clip. Like, I saw one which was an arrow. Like, bow and arrow type of arrow. It was gold and it looked so cool.
17. Cool hipster socks LOL
18. That is all.

Danke und tschüss!

Friday 8 November 2013

I can be the drink in yer cup, lad.

I can be the green in yer blunt, yer pusherman, I've got whatcha want.

You wanna escaaaaaaape.

Hello, all, welcome welcome welcome.

I know. I haven't blagged. I haven't blagged since forever ended and for that, I apologise. But I've been busy.

  • I got a job. It's across the street. It's v convenient.
  • I'm a service person at Coles ffld, so if you're gonna check out, check out me - check out via me*
  • Island gigantism or insular giantism is a biological phenomenon in which the size of animals isolated on an island increases dramatically in comparison to their mainland relatives.
  • I am an arts student. This post is art. Trust me, I studied Russian avant-garde. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life.
  • I have absolutely no idea.
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 I don't like studying or doing what I'm doing at USYD. I picked up too many things at once and I'm struggling to keep it all together. I bit off more than I can chew, and it's going to be the death of me. And by picking up too many things, I mean studying, vsa and work. And of course, backing out of VSA would be the most logical solution. But I can't do that to them. I must do what I must. Eso sí que es.

So I've been thinking. Maybe I should take a gap year. I'll work at coles, and in my spare time, I'll work on videos. I'll work on my portfolio for a film school, and by the end of that gap year, I'll apply for AFTRS. And depending on how much I worked, I'll be where I want to be. This past semester, I enjoyed uni much more than I did in the first semester. I knew things. I didn't feel so useless. But, I still didn't like it hahahahha call me picky, call me weak. It's not that, really. Perhaps I'm wording this wrong. I enjoyed most of my units, I did. But I was truly happy in only one - film studies.Okay, okay, I know - not film again! Didn't we settle for education?? But I don't want to settle. And yet, such is life and life sucks. It's all about compromising as to survive, ja? But I don't want to be that person. I don't want to live that life. I mean, not to sound like the typical, stupid dreamer but is it really considered living? Living in fear?

I want to have more self-confidence. I want to strut. I want to truly believe in myself. But I don't. I hesitate every second second.

Let's make a plan for the gap year:

For the first few months, I'll release videos every three weeks. So that'll be like four vids or something, idk, and then as time goes by, I'll make more artsy vids. I'm gonna master editing. I'm gonna try new stuff. I'm gonna write so much more. It seems to me that the only time I write or blog is when I have an essay due hahahaha whoops. Anyways, I actually don't know what I'm gonna do. But hm, I'll create a system where if I don't make a video in a set amount of time, I will punish myself. How though...

Gosh gosh gosh, I'm going to ruin this. This plan can go wrong in a million ways.

I could end up not learning a thing and wasting a year of my life.
I could fall in love with the money I make and I could never want to go back to studying.
I could not make it into AFTRS.
I could get really bored.
I could ruin absolutely everything.

Eso sí que es.