I FORGOT TO WRITE A POST ABOUT 2013

Um, alright year. Actually, no, pretty shitty. Sucked a lot, education-wise. But I am ever so happy to have made the friends I made, and to have enjoyed the year with my new friends and my beautiful old friends. I tried a few new things. I wrote, just not as much as I wanted. It was a painful year, so many heartbreaks but eso si que es. It was my first year of uni and I kept fucking up. I would change a lot of things, but I don't know where I would be if things were different. I'm not going to lie, I'm not happy with who or what I became. I'm not as happy as I want to be. And with Ne Me Quitte Pas as my song of 2014, one of my happy songs, things didn't quite go to plan. That was 2013.

Maybe photos next year in memory, aye?

I hope your year was better than mine, and that the coming one is even better. Thanks for reading my blog, guys. I really appreciate being heard by whomever, whenever.

Until next year.

Screenshots

The following are screenshots of my phone :)

Bringing back this guy hahahaha

My man

One of my favourite phone backgrounds :)

Me dancing on whatsapp

It's our best friend secret language

I tried to find this viral-ish vid of some lady trying to seduce her bf [which was full of racial slurs omg lol] but my google search was somewhat unsuccessful.

On the naughty side of youtube {also the slightly racist side [okay, yeah, I found the viral-ish video hahaha]}

"I'm going south coast" "No..."

The emoji's that pretty much sum up Drew

Glitch had me thinking this girl could not stop talking hahaha

Maria and I had an illegitimate child

hahahahah

Emily said naughty words this one time. Well, she kinda did.

Another nice background

Emily Tea laying it down.

Celina and I v confused

The mystery was solved.

And fkn Wynee would not reveal who the person was

I know that Cole was being sarcastic and an ass, but I'll take it as him admitting that I'm a very attractive guy.

Tammy not quite being herself hahaha "WOW>"

"I feel like I'm eating a remix" What a retard.

I paused a vid and it looks like gaga fell over hahaha i think it's funny....

So I follow this blog that just posted pics that had flowers in them and they were always very innocent pictures from flickr where she would include the name the photographer titled the photos [as seen above with "flowers"]

Another example.

But things took a turn?

Hahahaha

Mmmmmmmm

*Victoria joined* "Hi / What" *Victoria was removed*

I just like this

I was plastered all over the place and it was beautiful.

The only playlist I need.

So my phone had an update and one of the ups was that my lock screen shows the album art when I play music and I love itttt.

get outta my face

I tried v hard to get a screenshot of his tongue out so I could set him as a whatsapp convo's icon then I could name the convo poo emoji's so it  would be like he was licking crap.

But I just couldn't

quite get there.

And this is just a little bonus for you guise. Look how pretty. So prettyyyyyy. But hahaha, his suit is just body paint and you can see how tiny his nipples are.

Did I show you guys the first trailer to Her?

Well, if I didn't, I'm showing you now!



I can't wait for it, omg.

Yeah, that's it. That's all this post is about haahahah, more posts below vvvvvvv

Byeee

Smart

You've been waiting.
You've been living, acting,
Waking up, eating, sleeping,
As regular as always -
But, you've been waiting whilst doing so.
Don't fool yourself into thinking that
Productivity,
Is equivalent to or an indication of,
Moving on.

You're still waiting for a beautiful boy to find you, amidst the boring struggles of your daily life. You used to be used to the train rides from here to there and you accepted that empty spaces were part of life but now you can't stand the smell of the rubber seats melting in the heat of a Sydney Summer.

You're still waiting for that day when the little pleasures in life such as baking soufles and letting water rush off your face doesn't make you anxious because you feel like the tiny drops of water that fall straight from the shower head to the drain.

You're still waiting for a feeling of accomplishment. You haven't achieved anything "worth mentioning" in years. You grew up with people thinking you were smart because you wore glasses but then everybody started wearing glasses, or they changed to contacts and astigmatisms in your eyes meant nothing. You grew up with smart people looking at you as if you were them. You were polite and quiet and you did supposedly "smart" subjects, but you grew older and before you knew it, you were like them. You were the same age as they were. And you continued to be polite and quiet but you weren't smart. You were never smart. You just had smart friends. And you leeched off their intelligence and believed that your own hard work got you where you are now. But even now, you're not smart. You can't even cope with the consequences of your leeching, and you become more of a disappointment then you would have ever felt if you grew up looking and being stupid.

You're still waiting for a fleeting moment of pure ecstasy. It doesn't have to last any longer than a second. But in that second, you want it to sear through your veins and relieve you of every problem that itches at the back of your head. You want, for just one second, to be free of your failures. You want to be free of the wrong choices you made and the way you let yourself down. You let yourself down. You used to only let other people down and that was okay because they didn't know a single thing about you. But it's different now. And you've never realised how unforgiving you really are.

You keep falling in love with everybody who gives you attention - you keep falling in love for the ones you can't have - you keep falling in love every changing second - you're like the wind but not the kind that wisps around cheerfully and gracefully - you're the wind, sharp as a knife - no jackets tonight - you're going the wrong way.

But boy troubles are just distractions from the real problems in your life. And here you are again, back at square one.