Was she the girl that's from the video?

I have so much to say and I want to say it clearly and nicely but I'm very lazy and my neck is sore :( Anyways, yeah lol, this post is longgggg overdue. On the plus side doe, blogger glitched and I got like 200 views in a day lol Anyways, I need some breakfasssttttttt. Brb.

Well, first things first: Vietnam was amazingggggg. I was such a good, brilliant, crazy time. Even if it was literally just Saigon, we had the best time.

I KEEP PUTTING THIS POST OFF. TODAY - IT IS PUBLISHED. Unless someone invites me out because it's good friday and I'm all alone.

I hope someone invited me out that day. Anyways, vn was great and I loved it, bye.

Roll #5, Partytimes

Won't you come back.

my attempt at distracting myself from the FUCKING BLEACH in my hair and on my scalp

It is so damn itchy but every time I scratch, it burns, so I'm gonna type non stop to busy my hands. There's a boy I like and I think he likes me too and he's not incredibly pretty but he's cute and he's toned. He has a boyish charm that I like however, I'm faced with a few problems.

I'm not sure if I actually do like him, or that I just like him a lot more because he's shown interest in me. That worries me quite a lot actually. I love attention. And that branches out into affection I guess, hey?

I have actually been attracted to him before but that was back when he was going to the gym :( LOL ANYWAYS, going past looks, I'm not quite sure we are that compatible? He's very active and he likes physical activities and me, well not so much. Once he described his experience quad biking to me and at the time, I was astonished that he was actually having such an active conversation with me because we had barely spoken before. I was also very charmed by his boyishness. But like, we don't have a lot in common? But at the same time, I feel like I could tell him all my secrets in exchange for his.

The other thing is that he thinks I'm really cool lol He admires me for who I am, my makeup and stuff like that and it's nice. I don't do the things I do usually for people to admire me. I do it more for the self confidence and satisfaction. But it's nice when he thinks I'm cool and I think that goes back to my love for attention and affection and I guess now admiration.

I'd like to see where this goes, but my worries lie within a future that's barely starting. Can I like him forever? Is he the best looking guy I can get? And I know I sound super shallow but like what if I stop liking him but also find that nobody else will love me so I stay?

I'm taking this way too seriously for what this is but hey, it's on my mind and my scalp buuuuuuurns.

Sorry I didn't edit this after reading but thanks for sticking through it. Okay, washing it out now, bye, wish me luck.