Breaking hearts and breaking promises

I will eventually make a photo post but I cbb grabbing the photos from my phone and putting them into my computer and then my blog LOL So I'll do this instead, for now:

Dear Jesus III,

I keep going up and down my stairs to grab these little wiener sausage things from the fridge, but then I finish them before I get back to my room. As the night goes on, I learn to eat them slower, but still, it feels like they're gone too soon. So instead of taking just one, I've been taking two and then going upstairs. They're delicious. But I got distracted just now and before I knew it, I had just finished chewing the second sausage of two, and I got really confused and sad about where the other sausage had gone. I ate the sausage. I ate both the sausages and pretty much that's my life now. I keep messing up.

Life Update

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lol, I joke.

Life is okay. I've been trying to balance school and vsa, and it's going alright. If I were still in engo, then I would die, but I'm not. And I'm happy. Which is good. Hm. I really don't know what to say. Okay, anecdotes, hurrah.

LOL so in German tutes, right? There's this one girl who sits at the front and she's a bit strange and she's genuinely curious a lot of the time. And there was this one time where we were just practising grammar and we learnt something new and so the teacher was like, "So are there any questions? It's fairly easy". And the girl at the front was just like, out of nowhere, "are you catholic?" hahaha the teacher and the rest of the class were just like "what??" LOL the teacher was then like "I don't see how you need to know that, idk, yes. Does anybody else have any questions about me while we're at it?" And in the midst of the laughter, some girl at the back was just like "do you drink?" as a joke hahah. Teacher didn't hear tho. I love my German class.

Oh, and the other thing with the girl at the front. We got up to a chapter about 'the working world' and LOL to start, the teacher just made a bubble that said "Die Arbeitswelten" [the working world] and told us to write on the board any words associated with work, so people wrote things like arbeitsbildung and beruf and I wrote geld which is money. Anyways, afterwards we were to ask words that we didn't know in German so some people asked simple things like part-time and contract and LOL right at the end, girl at the front asks "What is... economic downturn?" hahaha I love her

NEEEEEEXT So there's this pretty attractive guy I know, right? He's straight so he's a no-go but you can just tell he has game. You know when you can just tell? Like you know they can get a girl real easy because they know how. Anyways, so he comes to my event right, and we've met before, we say hi when we pass, the usual, but apparently, when he greets people now, he winks. SON OF A BITCH. HOW DARE YOU. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO COPE WITH THAT. It was a good wink too. I'm upset.

Anyways, see y'all next time. I'll compile a bunch of photos and just do a picture post in due time :)

I'm writing something up.

Here's a small extract. It's a work in progress.

Part Four: Chronicles

I'm so absolutely afraid of growing old. And so, because of this fear, I've divided my life choices into several outcomes and actions. I could either, a) die young b) face my fears or c) achieve impeccably perfect and permanent youth I've been striving for the third option but it's been proving itself to be quite impossible. I tried dying young once. It was terrifying.

:O:O:O:O What's going on? Is the whole thing this angsty? Is it about suicide? Is it a tragic romance?

Someone's writing out their thoughts, some parts are just as angsty but they're a small portion of the whole thing, it's not about suicide and yes, it'll be a love story, and it will be tragic, in some sense.

I CAN'T WAIT TIL I FINISH IT, I HOPE I'LL BE PROUD.