I wonder if I'm the same person I am now, twenty years from now. Hm.

So, like, LOL, I'm gonna start making videos for my future-self. Okay, let's get this straight, I'm not completely ripping off Hellen :L I'VE MADE RECORDINGS TO MYSELF, WAY BEFORE I KNEW WHAT SHE WAS UP TO. LOL. Check mah phone, yo, the dates right on it, Mhmm. :L So, yeah. I haven't decided who I'm going to address it to. Well, obviously, myself, but I don't know what age I shall be. Hm. 30? LOLno, I can't wait that long. 25? Hm. Perhaps. I don't know. But future-me, I have a lot of questions for you. Okay, Imma film now, yeah? Gosh, I wonder what I'll become...

Also, I still like In The Mourning. It's really country but oh well. I was expecting a more haunting last chorus :L But yeah, that wouldn't fit the countriness :\ LOL, yes that is a word :L BYE!

CHANGER!

So, like, Falling is over :L As in, it's no longer fun to write, so I guess I'm moving onto my comedy piece :L Yeah, I'm probably gonna get bored of this one too but oh well. I still have my gravity one :L OKAY, so like, this one is about a man who has just been put in charge of a robot-making factory. I don't know what to call it yet though. Hm. 'Binary Helix'. LOL That's from a game. But it kinda fits. It's like you know. Robots are kinda like humans, but instead of the human body and organs and DNA, it's a metal casing, gears and data. DNA - data, binary - helix. YA SEE? LOL Yeah, I'm just obsessed with the name Binary Helix because it sounds really cool :L Yeah, and in the same game, there was a paradise planet and they called it Eden Prime. Yeah, LOL it's like the futuristic garden of Eden. WHATEVER, IT'S COOL :L So, like, yeah.. ANYWHO, the place makes robots for all sorts of things, like soldier ones and cooking ones. There are three main characters. The main-est :L is Jack who is the one in charge. There is Daniel - the token black guy and then there is Jacqueline - the hot, weird chick :L Daniel likes Jacqueline and Jacqueline is really into Jack. Also, Jacqueline is quite the creep :L OKAY, so the mainest guy is in charge, and knows that if anything goes wrong, he gon' be in big trouble with the big boss, some old, British, posh lady :L And then something goes wrong. Ze robots fight back LOL because of some glitch or something. And yeah, the soulja robots start shooting at the workers and people die. And the mainest tries to stop this. But not because people are dying, but because he doesn't want to get in trouble. And yeah. That's the story. Maybe I'll kill Daniel or Jacqueline. Who knows. LOL yeah, it doesn't have a specific theatrical style or anything, and it's not a wow, dayum script. It's gonna get me a 25 at most but LOL, don't worry, I'll get bored of this very soon and it's back to Falling for me! :D Or Jupiter :O

On a completely unrelated note: WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I SPELL 'anything' LIKE 'anyhting' ACCIDENTALLY, YOU THINK I'M SAYING 'anting' OR 'animating', BLOGSPOT SPELL CHECKER?!? LOL AND YOU KEEP TELLING ME THAT THE WORD 'blog' IS WRONG. LOL, IS 'spot' WRONG TOO? Okay. LOL Capslock over :L

You are the silence in between...

What I thought 

and what I said.

Oh, and by the way,

MERRY CHRISTMAS, GUYS! IT'S LIKE THAT TIME OF THE YEAR, WHERE SANTA GETS HIS PERIODS!

HIS COCK OUT*

HIS SLEIGH OUT**

:L May y'all have a very disturbing xmas :)

LOL oh my god

I cannot be bothered posting all those videos from the xmas parties one by one :'( I need a make video go edit machine again :( Okay, LOL, so xmas posts later. Right now, let's talk about non-Christmas stuff. Like ze future LOL Sadness struck today, and I thought I'd blag :L So, like, LOL enough about eeh. I've got my whole life ahead of me to complain about everybody being so annoyingly straight. EVERYBODY'S GONNA GO. LOL Like, after highschool, people I've met, said hello to, hugged, laughed with, asked help on homework with, partnered up with... will be gone. Highschool will be over, they'll live their lives, and I'll live mine. And I might never ever see them again. I love my grade. I may be bias because im in it, but still. It's filled with wonderful people, and I don't want to just completely lose track of them. You get so used to saying hi, what happens after those days are over? I guess I'm being a little bit overdramatic. You meet new people and you have a daily routine with them, but.. I don't know.

So my past week has been quite great. I got my new shirts, I got great presents, my new camera is here, i made lovely memories like avoiding balls hanging from a clothes hangy thingy, played Skyrim, listened to Taylor's contribution to the Hunger Games soundtrack (and I love the song. I never read hg, but the song is still good. LOL people just pointing out which scene the song is about. It's probably not gonna be in the movie, though. Unless it's the end credit. Oh my god. On a completely unrelated note, I hated how many times they played Iridescent in Transformers 3. Ugh. LOL this is a long bracket. BREAK.), I got two pairs of suspenders (yay, twice the fun :D ), I tried the rubbery-aftertastey green apple green tea with rainbow jelly at Easyway, I wore my pants too high, I wore my first proper boxers (LOL as in, I wore boxers under my pants, without briefs underneath :O LOL, okay stop thinking of my underwear now :L), I tumblred too much, I dreamt about Miranda Kerr (more about that later), I loved youtube's snowflake effect, I skyped with Maria, I very much appreciate Bonnie for driving me home :) (and hellen pham), I bought textbooks for ze HSC, I wrote a really long card to someone, I got someone a really cheap present :L. I wore my first homemade floral bowtie, I found my first shout (but I have yet to kill a dragon to gain its soul and learn the shout). I was in charge of decorations but didn't really do as much as the others, I ate my first Wendy's shake and dog, I started watching Skins (and it is so good! I love how each character is a messed-up teenage issue, and they're so real, it's crazy! Gosh.) I glazed a ham for a bit, I watched Maria struggle to ride a bike, I had a great week. It was lovely. I loved it. Life is nice :)

OKAY, LOL. So Miranda Kerr. The other night, I dreamt about my brother, mother and I went on a vacation. We went to some beach resort, and I went around and I met Miranda Kerr. LOL, she had a nice face and was really nice. We had fun. And yeah, for some reason I was helping her climb a wall of sand, and there were like weird artworks around. I think there was a pokemon one LOL And yeah, near the top, we almost got there, and then I looked up and some bitch model tried to push me off the wall LOL I KNOW! And yeah, she didn't and Miranda and I climbed that damn wall LOL, and yeah, she asked for my number so we could continue being friends and I was in the middle of giving it to her and I woke up. ... LOL and I woke up with this feeling of "WHAT? THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN??" LOL And then I started thinking repeatedly, "don't forget this dream. Miranda Kerr, Miranda Kerr. Miranda Kerr. You must blog this." LOL Yeah. That was the amazing Miranda Kerr dream. What a nice lady.

I guess that's it. BYE, GUYS! AND MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSS!!!!!!

Also, I'm too goshdarn lazy to make this post pretty :L So yeah, ENJOY! Even though by now you've probably already finished the post..... Or you skipped until the end. If so, go back. lol.

ALSO, YAY! two thousand pageviews :D 

Ganymede! Rosalind! NO WOMAN!

Yeah, LOL, sorry this is so late, guys. I tried looking for my video editing programs but they're kindof missing :\ And yeah :L HERE YOU GO :L Enjoy :) Oh and yeah. A lot of this is just darkness :L And me saying really lame crap :\

LOL by the way guys, in part VIII, I meant to say Orlando, not Oliver. My bad :$

GUYS!

I might be getting a new camera soon. It will be, like, a pro camera. My photos will still be really horrible, but they'll be in focus! Yayyyy. And and and I can film in better quality. Oh my god, I'm so happy I could, um, do something happy people do. Yay :D LOL Okay. That is all. Oh, here's a link to it. I think this is it: http://www.sony.com.au/product/dsc-hx100v If I don't get this, all my hopes will die. ... And a kitten. LOLjokes. I'll survive :L

"I watched his wildest dreams come true, and not one of them involving you."

http://store.paramore.net/store/show/WZEXX?intcmp=d2c/paramore/merch/Soundwave-page-title

Yeah, so my brother got me the mizbiz soundwave bracelet. Yayyyyyy. It's a bracelet that takes the shape of the soundwaves produced when a certain section of misery business plays. In fact, it's the moment when Hayley sings the title of this blog post :O

Yeah :)

Anywho, presentation day was good. I had fun :) That is all. OH, and a big sorry to Jack NGO! The sheet said Tran! But yeah. You got a book. Congrats, little whovian :) And sorry to Jordano. I kinda stuffed your introduction up :\ 

BYE!

Did you notice anything new?

:)8-<

Mission 1: Xmas Pressie Shopping

So yesterday, I had english tutor. The train was late, and so I was late for my bus, and I missed almost half an hour of tutor. Money WASTED! And I forgot to give Mai her ten dollars. OH WELL. So afterwards, I went to the city with Yessica to buy her present, Maria's present and maybe even my KK's present. I found two little items for Maria and nothing for Jess or me KK :) I got my brother a birthday present though :O The day started out quite alright (even though the train was late again). Until we had to go look for the co-op book shop. That... was crappy :L We phoned nita, who gave us the address - thank you, Nita - and we looked for it. We tried to open up a map on our phones by stealing internet from Starbucks, but that didn't work and some Christian guy tried to take me away to a missionary in America or something :O From my memory, although it's quite hazy (from all the Easyway drinking), the guy kinda looked like Micheal Cera, when he was in Arrested. Yeah, he probably didn't :L So we found a street map, and we walked the walk. An awfully long walk, but a walk nonetheless. We went to empty places and home places and even past a giant pool. LOL, apparently, we went all the way around :\ And yeah, when we got to the building outside of UTS, the place ended up being closed. ... ... ... 

So, I didn't get what I was looking for. By the way, I was planning to get Jess microbe plushies. A white blood cell to protect her, and a red blood cell to carry secrets, gossip and care during our heart-to-heart conversations, but now that I think about it, that's really more of a bio or PDHPE thing than a chem thing :L Also, before all that madness happened, we went around market city looking for punk and grunge apparel for Maria. Ended up getting things that Maria didn't want :L And we ate noodles :O and there were a lot of cityboys :)

And after the pointless search for Co-op, we went to Kenokuniya? Is that how you spell it? That Jap (or is it Korean? :\) bookstore in Town Hall. Yeah, Jess bought a book and so did I. I bought Doctor Who's 100 Scariest Monsters for my brother. Mostly because he lives with me and so I can read it too, but yeah. Because of his Birthday toooo. And then we headed home tired as hell, and read the Doctor Who book whilst waiting for 40 minutes for the the third and final late train. Goshdarnit. And we asked each other Production of Material q's on the train and a man snored, and Jess was especially busty today.

( . Y . )

 LOL, grow up, me. 

 So, as a nod to my old friend Andy Miao, I shall imitate his style of posts. This is his blog, by the way:

http://strengthincourage.blogspot.com/

Mission 1: Co-op Match

MISSION FAILED!

Score: 994,055/1,678,253 (59%)

XP gained: 23,452 + 75 (1 level)

Strength: 50 (46+4)

Dexterity: 20 (unchanged)

Intelligence: 34 (31+3)

Luck: 29 (28+1)

Estimated Mileage: LOL um.... 91,9q9,e9r,948,767,727,834,684,259.001 km

Cash spent: $57.10/$69.60 (82%)

Items found: 6/10

Traffic Incidents: 3

Final Health: 62/100

New level: 2

EXP to next level: 111111

4 Achievements unlocked!

1. Ignorance is Blist'

Without any idea of where you're going, walk long distances until you get there. (Strength +2, EXP + 60)

2. Maptastic!

Use a map. Or have someone who knows how to use a map to use a map. (Intelligence +1, EXP + 25)

3. Train to Lateness

Take a total of three out of three delayed trains. (Luck +1, EXP + 1)

4. Money Hates You

Go reckless with your money and spend spend spend! I always do this :\ :'( (Strength -3, EXP - 30)

Drama drama on the dance floor.

Also, about me, Jenny and Trinh laughing in the middle of our group performance: AND THEN JENNY TRIED TO COVER UP BY PRETENDING THE LAUGH WAS CRYING (because she was supposed to be crying anyways)! AND IT ONLY MADE THE SITUATION MORE RIDICULOUS! HAHHAHAHHAHAH I love drama.

Tumblr

LOL, I may or may not have been sucked in. ... Yeah, this has been going on for a while now :L DON'T WORRY. I PROMISE I WON'T LEAVE. Tumblr can't fill in the cracks of my dainty little heart LOL Wait, I'm a robot. My heart is perfect and in need of no repair :L Okay, so here's a link. Check it out, my darlings. And don't expect too much :L I'm struggling to get through this place. I'm currently asking Maria about changing my profile picture :O Okay, LINK!

http://bobina-williams.tumblr.com/

Yeah... ENJOY! :L And goodbye.

Also,

I don't need to be told to expect rain... 

It's raining inside, Mr Moon. 

It's raining inside me.

"I’ve spent my whole life falling. But not because I want to. Or maybe I do. I’m not quite sure yet. You’d think after all this falling, I’d reach the bottom... but I can’t even see it anymore."

Maybe an extract from my Drama script? Hmmmmmm. LOL, IT'LL GET BETTER :'( Just you wait... :\

DRAMA!

I Watch People

LOL, okay. So this post is gonna be really creepy, so if you ain't into that sort of thing,then you best be leaving.

Okay, so I watch people that I like. They're somewhat different. They're intriguing. Yah, 'cause I'm a creep. I'm a weirdooooooo. REST OF THE SONGGGGG. Okay, LOL, moving on. So let's describe these people. Imma talk to y'all about two people.

Person number one being Emilee Tang. SHE'S SO CUTE! She's also very pretty and nice and fun to be around. She's also very lame :) I like her very much. She's also weird. I like weird. She's a friendly girl too. I remember this one time in camp, we were waiting for the other teams to finish and so she started playing with one of the laptop crews member's / handballer's psp's, and I remember thinking at that very moment: "Gosh, she is so cool!" Yes. And sometimes I stare at her and she's so innocent! Gosh, she's awesome. Okay, NEXT!

The second person I shall talk about today is in fact one of today's objects of observations. She is CATRINA TAN! LOL, she is also cool. I love her red red hair, and the way she is. She's so nice, and kind and lovely. LOL I accidentally said I love you instead of I love your hair today :L :$ So, I was watching her in Drama today, right? AND SHE'S SUCH A KID! LOL she just sits there and sniffles. I remember one day, there was a scribble on her leg, and apparently, it's because it was itchy there so she scratched the area with her pen, unknowing to the fact that her pen thingy was out and she was drawing on herself! Haha, oh Cartina D.But yes, Catrina is very pretty, and adorable.

LOL, I watch people. And I judge them. I live right across from Fairfield Forum, and so I can see people in the car park. I watch them too :L I'm not a creep, I swear. Anywho, I like to see what they do, AND PEOPLE DON'T KNOW HOW TO PUT THEIR DAMN TROLLEY IN THE TROLLEY BAY. They just push there little trolleys into the garden and walk away. LOL. it annoys me :L And yeah, when I watch them, I think about how oblivious they are to the fact that there's a little Asian boy watching them. Then I start to think if people watch me when I'm out and about. Chances are there are people watching you from afar. Not because they're creeps or anything, but because they're bored :L So try not to look stupid in a car park :)

LOL, okay so I'm somewhat creepy, but don't worry. This is as far as it goes. I'm not gonna start collecting strands of hair or anything. Although I have been wanting to start a collection.. LOLjokes, calm down :L So yeah. Better watch out, boys and girls, because you could be next on my watching list. 

Also,

"Or are we just having the same nightmare?"

"But we can't sleep."

MY DAY

Haha, so english was delish. LOL, not really. It was okay. The questions were okay, it was just THE TIME IT THEY GAVE ME TO TIE MY SHOELACES DID NOT SUFFICE. LOL Did I use that word right? "GAVE"? Anywho, yeah. But, hopefully, hardly anybody finished, or wrote enough, so they won't penalise us too much. Yes. I wish upon the shiniest stars, the ones that burn the brightest, even if they fall the fastest - because I'm a desperate little bastard/housewife, I am. Erm. Collected money today. By the way guys, on Friday, the SRC will be collecting money on Friday for the K-mart wishing tree thing again, and if you donate at least five dollars or more, then you'll get the chance to enter a raffle, where the winner gets to go with the SRC to Kmart to buy stuff that you can't have :L It probably won't concern year 12, but make sure you tell yo siblings! Okay, so after school I went to eat Phillip Thai food with Huynh, Jess and E. That was nice. Umumumumum, I need to pay for jersey! :O Okay. I'll go loo

"Lucky" I'm in love with a man's best friend

Hi, Cynthia. This post does not concern you at all. I just thought I'd try and fit in with all the other bloggers.

So today, I became a beastialist, I ate potato balls, I took a bus ride, I discussed christmas and I didn't get to visit Maria :( Oh well, there is always week 10. Hm. Well, I guess that's all that happened today.

Also,

Bad things happen in houses like those.

Too dramatic for me own good :)

Guys, lol. Realisation: I don't love you. Not even close, mate. I'm just overdramatic. I hardly even know you! So, like, I think you actually have to have some sort of a bond or connection to love someone. Haha, there ain't one between us. 

I love jelly, lychee drinks and Lady Gaga, but darling, I don't love you :\ Sure, I like you. Quite a lot actually. But until you ever like me back, this is a lost cause. Don't worry. I'm okay :) I probably always was :L If I weren't already moving in with my sassy, kinda black friend, Maria, I would totally be your Wallace Wells :) LOL, I can imagine you writing songs for every girl you date, to get into their pants :L like that song, Cupid's Chokehold. Good song. Okay. I'm done. 

Aw man. I don't know you :(

It's time to stop being sad.

I was just going to post something on My Cerebrum. Something about my saddest moments. And then I watched this:

And gosh, it really lifted my spirits. Who needs sadness. Maybe it means I'm human but I already knew that :L I don't want to be sad anymore. I know you'll never love me, dear, and I've accepted that. I think I did a long time ago. It's just that when this last spark of hope went out, I kind-of panicked. It's okay now. I hope it is. I've been moping and sad and angry today too much. That's not me.

A wise friend once said to me that "things will get better in the end. If it's not better, then it's not the end." There will be other boys, other heartbreakers, other loves, but when it comes to the end, there will be a true one. Yay. Oh, and also Jess, Imma use that quote in my script :L 

It's time to go study now.

'Cause I'm Mr Brightside.

Pros about our non-existent relationship:

•  Hm.
• I don't have to shame my parents by loving a Kambo Kid :L
• I can relate to an Adele song... with millions of other people :L
• I'm not entirely sure. In fact I just made this up, but let's just say "the most important ingredient for the perfect love story is heartbreak."
• I can relate to a paramore song :D

Cons:

• There are none because this worked out well and beautifully and great and you make me sad.

LOL Just one of those things

Haha, I was in love with this guy a while back :L The song is really nice. Colorblind by the Counting Crows. It has potential for a belonging text :)

SOLAR BEAUTY from nicolas valois on Vimeo.

What Has Been Going On In Ze Vorld of Vilhem?

Let's see. Well, on Wednesday, I was on STAGE! As part of the official party. I seem to be the worst captain out of the four of us. When we entered, we were supposed to stay standing for the national anthem. I had no idea :( I sat down, and when Jenny tapped my shoulder, I shot up. Ms Vlassis laughed at me >:( And then, when I went to speak, I INTERRUPTED BONHAM'S HAPPY CLAPS :( I felt so rude and embarrassed afterwards. I'm sorry, Bonham. Next time, I'll let y'all clap twice as long :D (Parks 4 lyf, boyz.) And so that was embarrassing. I also wore my first school tie. As in my own tie :O Well, it wasn't in my possession at that time, but I bought the same exact one right after :D

Okay, so that was wednesday. Then there was THURSDAY! That was a good day. School was school. I bought meself a secondhand textbook. It's called "Physics in Context". Yeah. Also, Secondhand Serenade is a cool band name. Okay, so after school, I travelled to Lewisham with Mai, Emily Tea and Margsss. I made it to the second round :D But, I stuffed up my monologue. LOL Oh my god. I tried to do serious. I cannot do serious. I did the most AWKWARD squinting. LOL OH MY GOD. HAHA. :'( But, yeah. The people were generally nice. Just like the Canley groups before me, people thought we were saying Kellyville instead of Canley Vale :L Oh, us. There were those who were really proud of their acting skills, and those who wanted control. Oh, funny thing. We were split up into groups and sent to different rooms, right? And each group was to base a performance on a line, form a selection of lines. We chose "Do you recognise this?" and decided to do an interrogation about WHO ATE THE CAKE? And oddly enough, the other group, using a different line, also did an interrogation about WHO ATE THE COOKIES? LOL How weird :L And yeah. I went home with a few guys from the place. One guy was really into this one blonde chick, regretting his lack of flirting. Aw :L the other guy wants to make a lot of money in show business, hosting a show or something? And show his parents and make them take back their lectures :L and we met another guy at the station. He's from ford street, and gosh. He is good. In fact, when we got onto the train, he got a phone call, and it was the people from the audition place telling him that he made it in. i got no call :\ Not surprised LOL I was still sad that no other canley people made it that day :( Oh well...

And that was Thursday.

So now, we talk about THURSDAY! That was- LOL I mean FRIDAY :L Anyhow, that was also a good day. I went to National Young Leader's day. And a lot of people talked :) There was Jessica Watson, April Henry, Delta Goodrem and many other people. Th host was a good one, and he speakers were very interesting. And they gone and got me thinking - do I really want to become an engineer? 

"Don't ever be limited by what other people think you can do." April Henry said that. And I want to go into the film industry. I don't need a job with a long name. I want to create a story, and share it with thousands of people. I wanna make a movie that gets onto IMDB's top 250. That's the dream. But, my family wants me to get a big job. I'm still gonna go through uni though. Maybe I'll try and become a biomedical engineer and make movies on the side. But I wanna put all my energy into a film :\ But yeah, I know. It's risky and there's the money problem. Darn. Oh, and DELTA GOODREM. The lady I grew up with! Yeah, as I got older, I got bored of her songs, but I did love her at one point. When I found out she got cancer, my brother told me she died and I got really sad. I was too young to grieve, but woe was me for a day or two. Then I found out my brother lied and he laughed his ass off >:(

Then there's Saturday. Pretty fun. English tutor is always fun :) We read and wrote short stories. Quite alright. I went absurd though, and that's pretty much the opposite of what my teacher told us to do :L Afterwards, I went shopping in Fairfield with Jessica. That was fun. Oh, Christmas. The joy you bring is amazing.

SUNDAY: Which is today. Well, science. I zoned out like crazy. I am not trying hard enough :( LOL When I was tying my shoes outside, some fat bogan guy said "I'm gonna grab a little boy's ass today." :L I think he was joking. I hope he was joking :\ Err.. Yeah

Right just then, I wrote the beginning of my absurdist script. I'm having fun writing it. Scrap Jupiter, it's time for the Falling Man. 

Sad how I got the idea from the suicidal victims of Sept. 11 though. I feel somewhat heartless :(

Yeah, bye now!

Today's issue bought to you in BLACK AND WHITE! :O

WRITE FOR ME, PUPPETTS!

LOL Just ignore the title :L

Okay, so today, or tomorrow, or on Tuesday, or on Wednesday. Okay, the latest I will start this story will be Wednesday... LOL Okay, so I'm going to attempt a belonging imaginative piece. Yes. And I'm going to try to write it in an absurd way. As in, it's gonna be weird, non-sensical and unrealistic. Let's see how this one goes. But, it's probably gonna come out as stupid, too weird and what the HORRIBLE WORD THAT MEANS 'TO SEX'.  It also has the problem of a deceased writer.. Yeah... LOL Which is usually frowned upon. But, I'll have it checked out anyway. And if that doesn't work, then I'll just turn it into a script and hand it in as my IP for Drama :L ALL GOOD. And I'm afraid I might abandon my intergalactic idea for the script which I had my heart set on. I feel like I'm somewhat betraying it :L LOLokay :L Anywho, so imma try and write a story soon. Its title: Falling.