Hi,
It's Will. I thought it would be fun/interesting to update you on my life, a year from the last post.
I copied over the list of categories I made:
- work
- lovelife
- home
- friends
Work:
It's okay. It's a bit difficult to work in an industry that's so deeply rooted in money and marketing. In fact, I hate it. I don't feel like myself in this job. However, it's the closest that I'm getting to building a sturdy editing portfolio, and going towards what I want to do. I really, really hope that I can get out of it sooner rather than later. But it is admittedly a very cushy job. Can't lie about that - it's comfortable. And I like my coworkers a lot so that helps, and it doesn't at the same time.
Also interesting to be in a company that's at the top of its industry. So juicy, so much drama, such luxurious treats. But not worth giving up my sense of self bleh
Lovelife:
I'm going through a historically long lack of a sex drive. I just have no desire at the moment. But also I have the desire of having the desire - omg i miss having good sex.
Just before this, I was having sex with a sex ATHLETE from Chile. Sex was sport to him omghhgjsfdghjkfjdgks anyways, I self-sabotaged which is SO sad to say but yeah, just didn't want to have sex anymore - at least for now. I hope he comes back into my life.
Home:
Hmmmmm it's complicated. I'm living with a coworker now and that came with all the very obvious red flags that I did not see - just was not looking at them. Not paying attention.
Friends:
I am very happy to have friends that I've just fallen in love with. I recently have been just having these moments with friends that I've made, and have considered close friends over time, where I just fall in love with them. By that I mean my eyelids get heavy, my heart starts racing, i have endorphins rushing up. And I feel like I've been having these deep moments of connection with all my friends through life - I just wasn't grown up enough to know it for a time.
Otherwise, my parents are coming to Berlin!! In two weeks - I'm so eggcited!! I hope they enjoy it but I'm a bit scurred about how harsh the icy winters are here - since they grew up in South Vietnam and migrated to bloody Australia - and ofc, holidayed in Summer seasons - I'm anxious about the cold, and even things like my mum slipping on ice 😠But hopefully I can find boots for them hmmmm I need to make an instagram story.
Christmas is quite chrazy here - Germans act like they invented Christmas, everything feels soooo properly traditional, there's a lot of joy, it's a bit infectious. And this will be the first time i think where the much-beloved christmas markets will be fully open - so I can take my parents around those. I'm also taking them to this huuuuuge theatre where they do like big vegas-ish shows, the botanic gardens for the xmas lights show, maybe a castle in Potsdam! The top of the TV tower hopefully. Ummmm this huge asian grocery warehouse LOL I've never been - I want my parents to buy me a ricecooker.
Okay that's the update - I'm a little unsure about life at the moment but not hopeless just yet 😬 Wish me luck thru this fkn Winter that's just started, oh lord.
Eek,
Will
